updating and re-evaluating my life.

life has been really promising recently.. things are starting to fall into place.. and i guess as much it could be the way i look at life now..

is it really logical to say that we suffer to be happy?? its like an oxymoron.. suffering happiness... how can one be happy when one has to suffer day in and day out..

When does joy arrive when its just something we are hoping for or looking forward to..

on the flipside of the coin, i have really lost alot of weight.. and i have been receiving loads of compliment.. the sad thing is i am very bad at receiving compliments and 90 percent of the time all i can squeeze out from my darn mouth is a shy,"no lahh.."

it really frustrates me at times but i just dunno wat to reply.. sigh.. I need to figure out smth asap..

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Restart blogging.

since technology has advanced and everything is made simpler.. i would love to restart blogging again just for the sake of memories... i am very bad with remembering and a blog seems like a fibe way of remembering things.. especially when i travel.. lets raise our glasses and celebrate this moment!

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To great things..

Here I am lying down on my bed in a huge ass hotel room all alone in batam, blogging from my fone.
Indiana jones is on tv and I'm preparing to turn in.
Probably gonna read outliers for awhile before I set off to lala land..
Today has been a fruitful day meeting loads of people and going to loads of places.
I'm pretty tired out and I should be turning in soon.
Izzah's coming back tmr evening. She'll touch down most probably around the same time when I'll get back.
I dunno how its gonna be like when she gets back..
I hope everything's gonna be fine and our roadtrip to a kelong in jb for new year's eve will be alright..
I dunno how much blogging from overseas is gonna cost me and I should probably keep things short.
Tomorrow we're gonna be all over the place again.
So yeah, wish me luck and I'll update again tmr..
Take care and goodnight everyone! Here's an excerpt from my fave song of all time from mltr.

You took my heart away,
When my whole world was grey,
You gave me everything,
And a little bit more.

And when its cold at night,
And you sleep by my side,
You've become the meaning of my life.

Night everyone!

A great read.

Currently I'm reading this book entitled Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell.
Having too little time to read it.

During the recent camps I would spend 15 minutes every night reading it.
It has given me some ideas and knowledge to share with the students; like the 10,000 hour rule, why in the US, professional athletes are born mostly in Jan,Feb and March and ultimately how people achieve success mostly not from their own means but from the circumstances and and the family they are born into.

This guy is brilliant.
He wrote about anything under the sun and while you're reading it, you would always manage an exclamation in your mind,"Why didn't I think of that?"

There was this chapter he talked about Bill Gates and Steve Jobs. How did they become successful. They are both born in 1955 and when they were in their late teens and early twenties, it was the era of Information Technology. He wrote about how in their situations they were granted unconditional access to mainframe computers which at that time costs millions of dollars.

It was because of that fortunate circumstances they were in that they had more exposure to it and had an early start in achieving 10,000 hours of practice which eventually gave them the mastery of the skill.

If I had a chance to speak to the sports school students again, I would certainly ask them to try and record down the number of hours of practice they had since they started. And if they were guaranteed and olympic medal if they clocked 10,000 hours of training, what will they do?

Hmmm...Okay enough about the book already.. I dun wanna bore myself to death.

What happened today?
Stayed home most of the day today till i set off to town in the evening.
Well caught Narnia 3 with zul,ila,wee and mike.
Was almost late cos of a short traffic jam on the CTE.
Reached Cine and God was on my side cos i managed to get a parking lor in less than 5mins.
About the movie, Th special effects were great!
There were some shock-you-till-you-jerk moments which i dun really fancy.
Not forgetting the moments of so-intense-that-you-raise-your-legs-wanting-to-run-away kind.
Zul was practically laughing at me.

Overall great fun!

Getting tired now..
Update again soon!

=(

Lowest point of my life.

Dear god, please help me through this darkest hour for I know
dat it is meant for my own good and dat all things happen for
a reason and you have it all planned out for me.

The heart really hurts and I'm not sure why you put me thru this.
But I accept ur challenges willingly for all bad times u will
give me good times. Please look after her and protect her from all evil.

Amin.

Feelings

Having feelings is like wielding a double-edged sword.
You can hurt others as well as urself.
I am getting pretty sick of certain feelings..
Its such a tiring process trying to figure out the feelings of others..
Or even trying to be diplomatic.

An ideal concept would be to have everyone learn to be receptive
towards criticisms and advise.when we are receptive we take comments positively and try to change ourselves.
Obviously usually for the better rite? No point changing into smth worse. LOL!

Well, I'm just tryin out blogging on my fone so that I can do when I'm overseas.
Plan has been set. I will be goin overseas for a year once I get my diploma.
Thank god for the advanced pathway.
But I am havin some doubts as some people tell me y not just go to a local uni.
The problem is going to a local uni is no problem academically.
But age-wise, I'm getting too old to be relyin on my parents to work.
I just want them to rest as soon as possible.

If they dun get to retire soon. By the time they retire, they wudnt be strong enough to really enjoy life!
Well, just hope dat my plan will turn out well.. Currently, I do need a break. Planning one during the sept holidays.
Plan an extended holiday where I dun need to rush to shop and not havin enuf sleep time.. My sleep debt is increasing exponentially
and I am starting to feel the negative effects of it.

Will try to blog again soon..
Ciao.. =)

2nd night of night shift.

Well, today's the 2nd night of working the witching hour. I dun feel as sleepy as yest!
Maybe I can actually finish up on Hancock.

Been blogging on and off cos I jus can't seem to find the time or energy to really put my thoughts into words. I'm actually trying to type as fast as I can and see how many mistakes I'd make. Well today there isn't that many people. This store is much more relax in the sense that you can actually do more at night. Other than finishing my work early, I can even do my programming and read. So yeah... hmmm... i can't think of anything much right now except the fact that is freaking cold in here and i seriously need to pee. Did some housekeeping on fb and I'm seriously gonna get my trip advisor board filled up..

okok.. mental block.. will type again soon i hope.. ciao.. =)