To great things..

Here I am lying down on my bed in a huge ass hotel room all alone in batam, blogging from my fone.
Indiana jones is on tv and I'm preparing to turn in.
Probably gonna read outliers for awhile before I set off to lala land..
Today has been a fruitful day meeting loads of people and going to loads of places.
I'm pretty tired out and I should be turning in soon.
Izzah's coming back tmr evening. She'll touch down most probably around the same time when I'll get back.
I dunno how its gonna be like when she gets back..
I hope everything's gonna be fine and our roadtrip to a kelong in jb for new year's eve will be alright..
I dunno how much blogging from overseas is gonna cost me and I should probably keep things short.
Tomorrow we're gonna be all over the place again.
So yeah, wish me luck and I'll update again tmr..
Take care and goodnight everyone! Here's an excerpt from my fave song of all time from mltr.

You took my heart away,
When my whole world was grey,
You gave me everything,
And a little bit more.

And when its cold at night,
And you sleep by my side,
You've become the meaning of my life.

Night everyone!

A great read.

Currently I'm reading this book entitled Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell.
Having too little time to read it.

During the recent camps I would spend 15 minutes every night reading it.
It has given me some ideas and knowledge to share with the students; like the 10,000 hour rule, why in the US, professional athletes are born mostly in Jan,Feb and March and ultimately how people achieve success mostly not from their own means but from the circumstances and and the family they are born into.

This guy is brilliant.
He wrote about anything under the sun and while you're reading it, you would always manage an exclamation in your mind,"Why didn't I think of that?"

mastery of theirThere was this chapter he talked about Bill Gates and Steve Jobs. How did they become successful. They are both born in 1955 and when they were in their late teens and early twenties, it was the era of Information Technology. He wrote about how in their situations they were granted unconditional access to mainframe computers which at that time costs millions of dollars.

It was because of that fortunate circumstances they were in that they had more exposure to it and had an early start in achieving 10,000 hours of practice which eventually gave them the mastery of the skill.

If I had a chance to speak to the sports school students again, I would certainly ask them to try and record down the number of hours of practice they had since they started. And if they were guaranteed and olympic medal if they clocked 10,000 hours of training, what will they do?

Hmmm...Okay enough about the book already.. I dun wanna bore myself to death.

What happened today?
Stayed home most of the day today till i set off to town in the evening.
Well caught Narnia 3 with zul,ila,wee and mike.
Was almost late cos of a short traffic jam on the CTE.
Reached Cine and God was on my side cos i managed to get a parking lor in less than 5mins.
About the movie, Th special effects were great!
There were some shock-you-till-you-jerk moments which i dun really fancy.
Not forgetting the moments of so-intense-that-you-raise-your-legs-wanting-to-run-away kind.
Zul was practically laughing at me.

Overall great fun!

Getting tired now..
Update again soon!

End of one chapter, a new one begins..

its kinda ironic dat my last post was of us breaking up..

and today as i'm blogging again, after 6 months, we've just broken up again.



this time its for real. (cos we had a mature discussion like normal adults and agreed on just being friends and we will review it again in future.)



Being in a long-term relationship as well as a long distance relationship can take a toll on someone's heart.

And mind i guess.. cos I feel like i was turning into a mad person.



You know its kinda funny.

An insane person will not know he's insane while a sane person will know he's insane.

But does the sane person knows if he's sane?

to the sane an insane is insane but to the insane a sane is insane.



Therefore, an insane person is insane in a sane world whereas the sane person is insane in an insane world.



Redirecting back to the original topic,

frankly, I have never really thought much about us while she was overseas.

7 years together, 4 years apart(Sounds like a movie caption)



4 years apart was the most wonderful time for me.

you know how some couples actually grew up together with each other or something like dat.

Then they get so sick of each other and they eventually fallout.



Ours was different. Different in a sense that most of our major moments happened while we were apart. Our first trip to the club, my NS days, her moving in Melbourne,etc. We actually grew up together in our own little way.



The 4 years apart also made me do things I would have never thought of doing.

Like impromptually( i hope its a word) getting tickets to melbourne.

Driving on the wrong side of the road there just cause there's a sign which says in australia they drive on the left side.

Sending her flowers and draining my bank account with a click of the mouse.

Getting a blackberry(To reduce my bills and can bbm her.)

Making weight-loss new year resolutions but never achieving them.

And loads more which my tired mind can't really think of at the moment.



My point is, we grew up with and without each other.



Frankly, transitioning from being attached to single is an easy thing cos we have been away from each other for so long.

The tough thing to do is to keep reminding myself that I no longer am waiting for my special someone to come back from anywhere.

The next tough thing to do is seeing her with someone else while we're still friends.

The next next tough thing is living in singapore.

Being together for so long, we've been to like every part of singapore together.

Everywhere I go, there will be memories of her.

I remember vaguely, we went to marina barrage even before it was officially opened. I read about it in the papers, picked her up and we went.



Anyway, we have agreed to be friends and I won't say its impossible for us to get back together.

In the meantime, we shall let nature take its course.

我太累了.这是歌曲这让我和她在一起. 现在我去睡觉了.




只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的

我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得

你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經

希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開

你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過

我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過

你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你

我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你

=(

Lowest point of my life.

Dear god, please help me through this darkest hour for I know
dat it is meant for my own good and dat all things happen for
a reason and you have it all planned out for me.

The heart really hurts and I'm not sure why you put me thru this.
But I accept ur challenges willingly for all bad times u will
give me good times. Please look after her and protect her from all evil.

Amin.

Feelings

Having feelings is like wielding a double-edged sword.
You can hurt others as well as urself.
I am getting pretty sick of certain feelings..
Its such a tiring process trying to figure out the feelings of others..
Or even trying to be diplomatic.

An ideal concept would be to have everyone learn to be receptive
towards criticisms and advise.when we are receptive we take comments positively and try to change ourselves.
Obviously usually for the better rite? No point changing into smth worse. LOL!

Well, I'm just tryin out blogging on my fone so that I can do when I'm overseas.
Plan has been set. I will be goin overseas for a year once I get my diploma.
Thank god for the advanced pathway.
But I am havin some doubts as some people tell me y not just go to a local uni.
The problem is going to a local uni is no problem academically.
But age-wise, I'm getting too old to be relyin on my parents to work.
I just want them to rest as soon as possible.

If they dun get to retire soon. By the time they retire, they wudnt be strong enough to really enjoy life!
Well, just hope dat my plan will turn out well.. Currently, I do need a break. Planning one during the sept holidays.
Plan an extended holiday where I dun need to rush to shop and not havin enuf sleep time.. My sleep debt is increasing exponentially
and I am starting to feel the negative effects of it.

Will try to blog again soon..
Ciao.. =)

2nd night of night shift.

Well, today's the 2nd night of working the witching hour. I dun feel as sleepy as yest!
Maybe I can actually finish up on Hancock.

Been blogging on and off cos I jus can't seem to find the time or energy to really put my thoughts into words. I'm actually trying to type as fast as I can and see how many mistakes I'd make. Well today there isn't that many people. This store is much more relax in the sense that you can actually do more at night. Other than finishing my work early, I can even do my programming and read. So yeah... hmmm... i can't think of anything much right now except the fact that is freaking cold in here and i seriously need to pee. Did some housekeeping on fb and I'm seriously gonna get my trip advisor board filled up..

okok.. mental block.. will type again soon i hope.. ciao.. =)

2nd day of school..

Today was the 2nd day of school.. module was digital forensics.. its quite cool cos we have to learn more about the laws and how there can be loopholes in policies that can be taken advantage of by criminal intent. But wad made it bad was the faci is the module chair!! so ngiao at first but quite okay laaa...

smth happened yesterday... 2 very old aunties from China took the same elevator as me at my block.. i talked to them in hua yu and they were very surprised... they even asked which part of china was I from.. They asked if I was from Fujian or Yunan.. cool man.. now i know what kind of hua yu accent I speak in..

Anyways... really thinking whether i should go bugis tmr... Depends on what time i will wake up..

I havent slept for 1 whole night and Im still not sleepy now... Anyways above are posted some pics from the Genting trip.. LOL!

Tok again next time!! gotta exercise!

Loves...

Night!

Great fun!!! cant wait for Tioman in Sept...