End of one chapter, a new one begins..

its kinda ironic dat my last post was of us breaking up..

and today as i'm blogging again, after 6 months, we've just broken up again.



this time its for real. (cos we had a mature discussion like normal adults and agreed on just being friends and we will review it again in future.)



Being in a long-term relationship as well as a long distance relationship can take a toll on someone's heart.

And mind i guess.. cos I feel like i was turning into a mad person.



You know its kinda funny.

An insane person will not know he's insane while a sane person will know he's insane.

But does the sane person knows if he's sane?

to the sane an insane is insane but to the insane a sane is insane.



Therefore, an insane person is insane in a sane world whereas the sane person is insane in an insane world.



Redirecting back to the original topic,

frankly, I have never really thought much about us while she was overseas.

7 years together, 4 years apart(Sounds like a movie caption)



4 years apart was the most wonderful time for me.

you know how some couples actually grew up together with each other or something like dat.

Then they get so sick of each other and they eventually fallout.



Ours was different. Different in a sense that most of our major moments happened while we were apart. Our first trip to the club, my NS days, her moving in Melbourne,etc. We actually grew up together in our own little way.



The 4 years apart also made me do things I would have never thought of doing.

Like impromptually( i hope its a word) getting tickets to melbourne.

Driving on the wrong side of the road there just cause there's a sign which says in australia they drive on the left side.

Sending her flowers and draining my bank account with a click of the mouse.

Getting a blackberry(To reduce my bills and can bbm her.)

Making weight-loss new year resolutions but never achieving them.

And loads more which my tired mind can't really think of at the moment.



My point is, we grew up with and without each other.



Frankly, transitioning from being attached to single is an easy thing cos we have been away from each other for so long.

The tough thing to do is to keep reminding myself that I no longer am waiting for my special someone to come back from anywhere.

The next tough thing to do is seeing her with someone else while we're still friends.

The next next tough thing is living in singapore.

Being together for so long, we've been to like every part of singapore together.

Everywhere I go, there will be memories of her.

I remember vaguely, we went to marina barrage even before it was officially opened. I read about it in the papers, picked her up and we went.



Anyway, we have agreed to be friends and I won't say its impossible for us to get back together.

In the meantime, we shall let nature take its course.

我太累了.这是歌曲这让我和她在一起. 现在我去睡觉了.




只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的

我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得

你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經

希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開

你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過

我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過

你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你

我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你